Thursday, 2 May 2019

No where to go

I’m blocked out of my Instagram accounts. I don’t really care. I don’t want attention. Imbarely replying to people on anything. I don’t even know what’s going on. I keep putting myself out there and it’s just notenough anymore. Nothing’s the same it never was. I was a fool to think otherwise. I can’t confide in anyone. No one. I try but what’s the point? It’s not going to change anything? I love every day that it’s my last and one day it will finally be. 
I’m so confused . I just want to be held but thst means showing emotions it means being a person which I am not. I feel like a dehydrated leaf being squished into a million pieces as I disintegrate. 
I can’t please you. I can’t please myself. I’m in and out of this circle and I only destruct people. I just want to scream