Saturday, 2 March 2019
I have honestly forgotten about this blog as I’ve been more active on my Instagram accounts of @saz.vents and @saz.heals so check that out for better updates.
Me? I am fading mentally and physically. I’m sharing my story as raw as it is honestly because I feel like I’m preparing for my death. Not by suicide etc but health. If it can’t be fixed or healed then we will reassess.
I am suffering deeply. Constant pain vomiting snd laxatives. Not eating disorder required but medically required for my embarrassing huge bowel prolapse. Getting photos of it is hard because shit goes in all directions because I can not pass this giant softball. Yes I shit in my phone twice. Thank you lord for detol!
I’m continuing with uni but I won’t last long as my I’ll health consumes my whole being. God hears my prayers, he knows my pain dnd he will take it away. I admit I am preparing for death which is why I want to leave my mark on this world. Pathetically through a YouTube channel of ‘Saz heals’ and by telling my story of mentdk health advocating recovery and torment endured. The story of my anorexia and how it’s destroyed my life and left me where I am today.
Another thing that is ALSO painful is my cancerous forming uterus. It just gets worse snd worse snd the girl uni crap playing me against each other I can’t hsndle.can I ever hsve sex ? Can I ever conceive a baby? Hsve I already poisoned my body? How long do I have left?
My favourite psychic is away so if you can recommend anyone around health please message me! Thank you for the very few that read this nonsense