Will you listen?

Nobody hears my screams in the dark, no one sees the blood as it flows. 

I’m broken, I don’t want an admission but it’s getting to that point. 6 weeks until my holiday but wil I make it? My heart just keeps beating and my liver keeps functioning stupid body. 

I just want to disappear and have everything go with it. Let the world alpocolypse happen though I want my cat to live and be happy. I need him safe. 

I’m giving up on social media. Seeing everyone live their lives and I’m just over here with my messy hair and bloodshot eyes. I’m a mess. Does anyone see me? Why do my lungs keep breathing? 

One breathe at a time I suppose.