Monday, 2 July 2018
I don’t know why I feel the way I feel. I don’t understand anything. We just make money to spend money. Everything is from mundane to extreme and I can’t understand. I cling to medication cos it keeps me hanging on but I’m so worried about the world about life about myself about others, about the future about the present I just can’t handle this feeling of hopelessness. Do I cut to take my mind off things but what’s the point it just leaves more scars. I have enough. I’m so afraid of everything. I can’t handle this sober. What the hell is going on?
I wish I could say something that would help someone. I wish this wasn’t all for nothing.