Admiration in progress

Others are so smart and logical and I just feel like a blank canvas like I just stare at them and their wisdom while I breathe because that’s all I’m capable of. I’m so frikken stupid or maybe just doped out on meds. **Sighs ** I Just want to be okay but do I need someone to validate that? What is my life? Who am I even trying to be? Just be me but me is so blank. I’m not who I used to be but why not who even was that outgoing silly girl? And who is this oblivious annoying depressed person?