Tuesday, 26 June 2018
I hate this rut I’ve put myself in. I’m like the big green eyed monster. Jealous of so many people getting engaged, married and having babies and I don’t have anywhere close to that. It’s hard being single. Like some people prefer this but I’m at the stage in my life where I have love to give and I want it back. All I can hope is that through my nursing degree I grow as an advocate, a mother, a person and have so much to offer the world that it will happen in the right time. With the right people. Surrounding yourself with positive influences and scare off the negatives. All will come in time. Just wait. I want it now. I’ve never been patient. But this is lifelong so I should take all the time I need. I just feel like I have no future, I tell myself I don’t because I’m surrounded by this box I’ve put myself in and I need to break out. I need to plan and I need to accomplish.
If I failed my exam so be it I retake the topic and benefit from learning and understanding more. It will be what it will be.