Tuesday, 29 May 2018
Had my last day of placement today. Totally fucked it up but hey that’s me these days. In so much pain in my stomach and vowels like it’s just IBS I’m fine, it’s just a headache, it’s just my joints I’m just exhausted. But I’m fine it’s all in my head. I’m fine. I slept all afternoon and now in bed at 6:30. Does anyone care? I’m going to Judy lone it from now on not contact anyone and see who contacts me. Maybe all my complaints are just my depression. Fuck. I should just go off all my meds what’s the fucking point. I’m drugged to the point I don’t care. I’m ignoring phone calls I’m ignoring emails I just don’t care. I’m not in a good place and I don’t know where it came from I thought I was doing okay I thought I was getting better but I’m not. This is the end of me.