Fark my life

The longer I stay awake the more I just want to hurt myself. Lethal injections would be so easy.  Why do I have these compulsive obsessive thoughts. I can’t cut I have work tomorrow and would rather not be admitted. So yet again I follow my safety plan woo. I Just I can’t explain these ‘feelings’ or whatever they are. All I feel is numbness. And dumbness. Pop another pill you’ll be right mate. I don’t even know. Know anything. I can’t comprehend life I can’t think. And yes you might say we all have these thoughts and many people self harm well I don’t really care. I don’t care about anything. All is for nothing. We all die anyway