Sunday, 24 April 2016
It's killing me.
I have now got used to saving my posts as drafts so I can't be reported to my parents. So this is the unleashed moment . Thinking of having an unleashed Instagram account but can't be bothered. Anywho I'm struggling. I've taken a fair amount of pills and things which should knock me out but fuck do I feel suicidal. Is it normal to feel this way all the time? And to think I'm getting up in a few hours for work. I don't want to but no one else will so I might as well. I don't even know what I'm saying I'm so off my face. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Just kidding. I'm just a big fat whale without friends without a serious job without a life confused and forgotten. I'll never write a book anything worth while. Even cutting isn't so satisfactory anymore. Night that's enough my head is zonked. I hope I don't die like I don't want to die but I'm so suicidal how can that be? I'm confused.