Friday, 14 February 2014
What's really on my mind?
What makes me happy? What makes me feel?
I enjoy Disney movies because thy make me feel I'm in a simpler time with simple ignorance.
But Disney movies can only get you so far. I want to be dead. I want to rot. I want to commit suicidle but I can't I've tried and no matter what someone hurts. If I die, I hurt everyone. But by living I'm killing myself inside. I'm stuck in this cycle of self hate and pain. I don't know what to do because there is nothing to do. So much guilt. Guilt sinks me down and just nothing.... I'm lost beyond worth saving.